Thank you for that advice. It is really what I needed- a validation to the feeling that I need to see him face to face. It seems that when I do, the feelings of wanting to rekindle our relationship diminish, becuase suddenly the BAD feelings come back to. Its almost like I am in love with what we once had-and it is hard to get those memories to fade. I am trying so hard because I DO want a happy marriage. I guess I will just try and meet with him. Maybe getting some closure is the final step. ThankYou!