Re: The Colours of the Sun

Hi Lee

Thank you for the link - I've added the Crystal Rods to my wish list! Good to see that there is a supplier for them in the UK too.

I feel that you are probably going through the emotional equivalent of a healing reaction - just as there can be unpleasant symptoms when physical healing or cleansing is undertaken, the same can and does happen when non-physical healing is undertaken.
I did not have the benefit of a full hour long one to one treatment for my first session, my first few were about 15-20 minutes long and were in a group setting, so my first reactions to Reiki were less intense than yours. When I had my first attunement however, and for the 21 day clearing afterwards, I had all of the feelings and emotions that you describe. Within our group almost everyone at some point broke down in tears while receiving healing, and most of us had to take sick days from college in the following weeks. I personally am not someone who is given to crying very easily, but a lot of tears came at that time. I found myself depressed, I had moments (a lot of them) of utter despair, anger, regrets and guilt about things I thought I had come to terms with.

Healing on an emotional level can bring situations to a head, things that were simmering just under the surface and things that were previously kept deeply buried can come up (it's not uncommon for people to appear with whom you have issues to be settled), and I feel that this is in order that we can resolve them in our own minds and let them go.

I always think of it as being like air bubbles rising up from underwater - you can't push them back down, because they will just find another route to the surface - they have to be let take their course, and if you don't try to hinder their progress they will dissipate once they have surfaced. The reactions you describe are not uncommon at all, and what I will say is to pay close attention to them, take note of the emotions that come up for you. If at all possible, try to observe yourself and your reactions to what you're experiencing.

I think that, unless you have been put off totally by your experiences, another Reiki treatment quite soon would be in order. Your therapist told you that you took on a lot of healing, so I think it is probably important to keep going. I don't know how you feel about going back for another treatment, but when so much healing has happened I think stopping now would be akin to halting a physical cleanse at the appearance of detox symptoms.... Of course it's up to you though.

On the subject of the argument you had with your sister... well, the spookiness continues. I did get the impression that you had been involved in an argument actually (I thought brother though, not sister), but I decided not to mention it because I thought it was coming from my own assocations with the throat chakra discomfort, and probably too simplistic to assume you'd been arguing based solely on that.
Don't you just love the 45 minute phone lectures? (I have a sister, two years younger....we don't always see eye to eye.)

You might never be able to make your family see your point of view, or accept 100% some aspects of you, or your life. It's something that most of us face, never more so than when your beliefs and theirs are polar opposites. It's very frustrating, it hurts, and yes, it just makes you want to get far, far away. If you do decide to get away, I think that to leave on a note of anger or discord with your family will cause you all undue anguish though. Maybe to get away would be the best thing you ever did, maybe not - maybe you'll feel differently in a short while. The family thing can take its toll, and maybe it is time to speak your truth. You are entitled to live your life as you see fit, just as they are entitled to live theirs, and maybe it's time that everyone just agrees to disagree, and tries to respect everyone elses choices. At the end of the day, you might despise how somebody lives their life, but they have a right to their beliefs and their choices. I don't know anything about your family Lee, but I get the feeling that you might have to be the bigger person here - but not at the expense of your own well being. If there are things to be said, it might be time to take a deep breath and say them calmly and without emotion - and whatever happens, happens.

Do let me know how you get on should you go for another session (your therapist might be able to give you more insight into the experiences you have had). I'm sorry to hear you've been feeling awful, I hope you feel better soon. Remember - this too will pass. Tweet