It's an attachment issue. You liked the attention you were getting while you were depressed. I've been through the same thing and the resistance toward spiritual healing meant that I had to learn to let go. The trauma was more lifestyle-based. Many people disappeared. All of a sudden, my whole life changed.
The question you must ask yourself: Why were these people more fond of you when you were in a state of depression? Is it because you unknowingly made them feel better about themselves? Perhaps now is the time when you can form more lasting and empowered relationships. Remember, you can't lose anything that was truly yours in the first place. Relax. A person that worries cannot be playful. Don't worry about it! =)
I'm still funny. Oh, so funny. I regained it when I thought it didn't matter and stopped looking.