Re: The Narcissist and the personal narrative

"Sometimes we have to be lonely."
In the physical world yes...

"You can't really cherry pick, and you can't really discard."
I think you can discard. My belief system of my youth is no longer my belief system today. Once I figured out that God really was love, the dogma of a spiteful angry God fell of of me like a chain released by a key. I still maintain a belief in God as I met God personally but my God is a loving parent and not some potential executioner waiting to burn mankind because they were born to parents of a different faith. I came to realize that hell was right here in this world where my flesh burns for unclean spirits and when we die...we discard unclean spirits attached to our body on our way to the light. My God is still the same God as my youth who I reached but I have discarded a God who would destroy my enemies...because the God I met in heaven is the father of my enemies as well...and then one step further...my enemies are my brothers and being brothers...I can not hold a grudge for my brother for too long...At some point, I have to let it go.

You take the rough with the smooth. I always saw trying to fit in and trying to be accepted as an addiction of the ego, and we're all guilty of it.


"As for true selves - if my 'true self' called the shots in my life, I would be far more involved in the 'we', in my community, my family, the collective. I would be able to love unconditionally and serve others selflessly without a thought."

I believe my true self does call the shots and I do spend almost every productive hour being involved in my community, family, and even in the collective... but is it really unconditionally? I give because I receive ten times more back when I help others...it is just some kind of spiritual law... I think there is something even higher than me giving... I think if I can show the world that my motivations may be selfish but if I am raw enough...they may be able to see through my selfish flesh to see God's light...so theu might be drawn to that light... the light of God's love.


"It's ego that holds me back - fear, pride, envy, anger, desire. If I was being more my true self I would be far less identified with my 'persona', myself as an individual... I definately wouldn't be rejecting my role in the collective narrative of the bigger picture."

I can see my ego holding me back for sure. Loosing my ego though, I would have nothing at all left to that keeps me bound to this earth. Letting go of my ego....I would simply vanish.

It is delightful examining these thought with you. Mt journey to heaven ansered every question I have about my soul but with my flesh....I still strugle with my flesh... I guess that is why I am still here Tweet