We look forward to whatever it is you want to share with us regarding your experiences or thoughts.
Personally I think you were given a wonderful chance to re-think your life and actions. Nothing in this life is written in stones, there's minute to minute flexibility to examine and edit your choices. If you begin to do this, I'm willing to bet if ever you had a next time, your experience might be a lot different.
Seize the opportunities my friend, the moment begins right here. :-) ~♥~