You will never find a group of people as willling to hang on your every word as we are here. We are here to seek, share and learn from each other. So please, take a deep breath, concentrate and try to remember every detail and tell us just as it happened. As hard as it may be, try to add nothing to it from present experiences, beliefs, circumstances etc. As Rudenski tells you, as you unfold your story clarity will beging to come to you. First a little, and then as time goes on you will discover a greater ultimate purpose, I'm sure.
We are with you, no judgements, no criticsm, it's your center stage.
Be blessed.