This is very cool talking to you people. I have been carrying this around for a while now and have not really found anyone to talk to about it. Have all you had a close experience too? I guess I am still not sure about what to talk about here. I have told a bit. Of course there are big questions. We all wonder...So far I have come to one conclusion: it's all far from glorious. It was very lowdown and hard puffy work. But again I must say that I agree with Rudenski. You reap what you sow. I hope that if you prepare in a righteous honest manner the reward be there in a befitting way. What "befitting" means is not up to us though. LOL