I am glad that even though you said you were exhausted from trying to explain your experience to us, you have come back anyway. I hope you will find the strength to continue sharing with us. I love your response to New Girl. Now I have a few more questions for you, if you don't mind:
1) Who or what are the 'peeps'?
2) You say..."My memory of my NDE often trys to force itself into my belief system...." How does that work, or is it the other way around, your belief system tries to force itself into your memory of your NDE?
3) And lastly, this one might be a little touchier,... what is your belief system?