Thanks to you all for your interpretations. Now I know what "peeps" means too. If guilt has served it's purpose, which it has, for me to help others, I will dump the guilt. There is so much perspective here that I never knew, this forum is a great support system.
I was raised a Roman Catholic. There are many good churches, but I have memories of the teachings of the wrath of God, and punishment, and the 10 commandments. So I can shed where all this guilt came from. Most churches today teach Gods Love, and his highest law, that is, Love thy God, and Love thy neighbor.
Life IS full of millions of brainwashings. Occasionally,even more often now, I turn off the tv, and meditate or do housework, with quietness, and clear the mind clutter. There is no stress or chaos.