Re: Hi Lori!

Hi, Tracey

Yes, yes, yes!!

Well my mom can't remember the exact birth time but she's gonna look at home. If she can't find it, you think I could get it from the Birth Records govt. offices? I live in the capital so it'd be real easy. I've gotten birth certs for my daughters - I think this shows the time? You can tell I haven't looked at them in a while. My interest is totally piqued. Never had a full 'reading' done with my time and place.

I used the time of 6:34 pm cause my mom said it should be around that time, and it was Houston, TX, but I'll get the exact time. The chart is cool but I have no idea how to read it!

Yes, quite a lot of stress the past year or couple of. My yougest two are only a year apart. I've been working FT through it all and much of that time my hubby and I work opposite shifts for financial reasons. I just thought it was the high demand of this situation but I guess the planets are affecting me?

Dying (sp?) to know what more Pluto has to say. I think I know it already: the conflict between taking care of others, esp. raising babies, when you don't even take care of yourself very well. I was 20 when I had my first, totally not ready. Like I said, living unconsciously. The 'lovers' you wrote makes me think of the relationship I have with myelf. My hubby and I are very compatible and happy with each other right now so I don't think it's that.

How does Pluto affect?

Yes, I've been approaching spirituality for a little while now. Trying to be more active with it. I am finding more and more how fulfilled it can make me feel........now to make the time.

That brings me back to above - the struggle of making time by myself. It's paradoxical: now that I have more value for myself and WANT to create a true life for myself, I really have to "fight" for it. Whenever I think of it, the word fight always comes up. But hey, I figure this was the best way for me to learn these things. Pressure sure does make you prioritize!!!

I recently picked up writing poetry again. I let it go for years!!! Don't do it often but when I do it's always heartfelt and I think it's good...of cours, it's mine! ANd music is big. Finding I like to sing, be in harmony with the music. Used to be in band, played the flute. Always wanted to learn guitar and piano and write music/song. IN fact, my husband is a one-man, electronic band. He's very talented. I also keep fantasizing about dance. I like to dance and I need to do it more often.

You and others have mentioned empath and supersensitive. I don't see it. WEll, I am very aware of my surroundings and people's vibes. And always wanting to reach out to them, esp if I think they're despairing. Maybe the empath stuff just needs to be developed....

OK, my mother. No, I was severed from my natural father when a toddler and this was devastating growing up. Didn't fully connect with him till much later - like late teens. But I've alwasy had this sense of not too deep understanding from my mother. She is a strong-headed 'scorpio' and I was the soft-spoken cancer child. Looking back, I would've needed a lot of encouragement and pulling out of my shell for her to really know me, but I told you about the dysfunctional environment I lived in.

SHe loves me to death and will do anything for me but she disappointed me. I have forgiven her...she has her own issues. But as a child I was very hurt that she would never leave my emotionally abusive step-dad. It got real bad and just when I thought it was bad enough for her to leave him, she would always stay. They finally divorced when I was in mid-high school but it was too late by then. Hm....I think this touches on my deep mistrust issues. I had some very deep emotional releases this year and I realized I was feeling like I truly didn't connect to a 'family' as a child and I think this is why. Her actions didn't support that of a protective mother. In fact, many nights I would listen to their arguing, 'waiting' for any sign of distress or harm to her, to come to her rescue. Messed up........

anyway, enough of the past. BUt I have had issues with standing up to her, surprisingly. WHy would she still have such a hold on me and me be afraid of her disapproval? I am challenging this and asserting myself more. Curiously though I get butterflies sometimes when I confront someone important to me,like her or others. It has a physical connection?

I'm getting the message big time that this is my life and I must not let anyone control what I do with it.

AM I getting too personal, here? It doesn't even bother me actually.

Lori

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