Re: Afraid of Freddie Crougar (sp?) attack

Hi, Tracey!

Thanks for responding. It is nice I was able to identify it - I think that's a good interpretation.

I checked out the chakra site - pretty cool, thanks. Most of them are OK but probably a little low, but the navel and throat are low. I already knew this. Have hypothyroid, related this to the third chakra of not standing up for myself, emotional issues led to low self-esteem and low self-care. Planning to do cleansing also as I have leaky gut and probably candida. Man, what a journey! Like I said, realizing how unconsciously I was living.

On the Mayan signature, I am Red Rhythmic Dragon (6-28-74). Long post but what I remember is the jest of it to embody the unity of ego and spirit. To surrender life to spirit - but isn't this what all spiritual evolution is about? And that is tough right now, seems like I'm almost gonna need to do a 360 to fit the bill. But it's now something I WANT: a year ago I would've responded to my dreams as: yeah, right, not in this lifetime! So that's a good sign that I'm opening up.

SUbconcious about yellow sun and unconditional love. I feel it at times but it is transient and not so permanent yet. Not that I expect it to be 100% but my anger issues.....you know.

Challegne is Blue Monkey. What I remember right now is the shadow of wounded child - and I say, yep, trying to resolve that. I identify totally to not feeling nurtured as a young one, and I was shy and quiet at that, so it's not like I easily said, Hey, over here, I need your attention!! All related to the speaking up for yourself.

one aspect I have is white mirror, can't remember what aspect. The last one. This is pretty accurate lately: been doing some intense self-reflection. And I respect that what is reflected to me is my inner state....another given but I relate.

Can relate to the creativity need of Blue Monkey. THis past fall/spring I had these ideas to take classes of painting, drawing, which I've never done in my life. Yes, I need to lighten up. I want to ENJOY life, and right now it just feels like so much work!!

So, the challenge is, how do I create a life of my own, now, that i'm raising three young children? ANd I'm the breadwinner (blue-collar breadwinner) of my family? This is part of my plight. Already see it: have to assert what I need and am seeing more and more that this may be pretty different than what I have. I feel like I'm in the middle section of that tug-of-war. Ah, if i could just surpass this pesky fear! haha

I guess these transformations take time and I'm trying to be patient........

Sorry for my life story! AM going to look into the Mayan astrology. BTW, I just think it's amazing I've been led to this whole area - venus transit/world transformation. I totally resonate with it, even though I've never heard of it before in my life.

I'll do the dream questions and I need to get on with some energy healing therapies - trying to find the money. Just when we were balancing out, we got pushed back to square one. That's another issue......... But I'm trying to do what I can to work with my chakras.

Tracey, Let me ask you something if I may, this is the second reference that says I already know my 'life lessons'. Then why do I feel so imbalanced and such inner turmoil? Maybe I came to this life with good information but just choose the path of self-denial and illness to wake me up?

Thanks for your time!

Lori