Thanks soooo much

Thanks you too, yes, I know about the inner child I have been trying to heal her for a long time. I have been to many counselling sessions, and other healing. I am certain it is because I am living where I am living. I live with my family... I am 38, have been living with them since 31 cause have the severe ill health. Seems to be a reason I have had to live here, possibly to see all that I went through and why as child.
Lots of love here, but have always felt no one ever really listened to me. No one ever stood up for me, ever. Even when I was sick and had some say I faked this illness. Not one parent stood up for me, yet they knew how sick I was. They wanted to keep everything... flowing smooth so just let it go. Meanwhile I was devasted by what others were saying. I let it go, stuck it inside, and it festered.

Anyways, I know the exact time my inner child started to get , wounded. I use to run away into the back seat of the car, at about age 5-6 to see if anyone would know I was gone, to see if they really care. I would sit for hours in the back seat of the car... and no one came to get me. They later did hours later and thought it was a JOKE. I was so sad. Tried to take my life at age 15 cause thought no one noticed. Turned bulimic, and started to abuse alcohol... and got sick at age...31. I kicked the bulimia years ago, too sick to drink, and am now healing all of me. I also know that the parents and rest of the family are still the same and will never change, but that does not mean I will not change. I have, I still am wounded cause of the lack of response I have gotten to me severe ill health. Heck, one year ago i would have died if GOD had not intervened with my dreams... telling me what to take and what not to take sometimes.

This little girl was kinda darkish in colour, I think islamic... but dont know if that matters. She was in RED! :) I think that is good, as I think now, it is life is it not? Tiny little skinny arms... so I must have seen her before burial... not sure...

I cannot loosen up where I live, I just cannot. I have tried a thousand times, but for some reason, get tight when live at the at family house. Alcohol is involved, and though not always active,
total dysfunction is here. I will never come first, when I needed to, I came last. I feel totally wounded living here.
Like I am dying.

Anyways, I have just been in touch with a MD in the city... and he is going to work with me to get well, and also work with my LYME MD. Plus dreams from God or angel.

Tracey, my birthdate is... April 13 1966.

Yes, that tiny little girl in the box is sooo sweet. I love her so, I really do. I have known about her for some time, but just cannot get her out... lately.

Tracey, if you want, def check out my birthday.

I have this feeling, I am going to be well by the end of 2004.

I am also very ill with lyme and candida, but getting there.

thanks soooo much, really means a lot to me. :)

Gehna