have you contacted the police about this? it's understandable that you are feeling this way and nothing I or anyone says can make you feel better im sure. But maybe you really do need to talk to someone hun. If not a friend or family memeber and counsleor of some kind. you don't need to be dealing with this alone, for real. I am sorry that you are suffering, and i wish there was something i could do to make it go away for you. anytime you want to email me you are more then welcome. but please consider confiding in someone, i think it will make you feel better.