hi stemmy, i am sure a lot of people can relate to you, i know what you are going through, i've been there. there is hope, and there is an end to that stuff. it's really hard to remember this when you are going through the most miserable time but yes, there is an end to it, and things will start getting better, very slowly. have you shown any improvement since you started having your problems? there aren't quick fixes for our kind of illness unfortunately, and getting better is very slow. i looked at your previous posts and i see you are working with a doctor. do you have trust in her/him? have you made any progress since she's been treating you? i would consider changing the doctor if things aren't progressing right. what kinds of lab work has the doc ordered? how did she diagnose you? faith is a great thing when it gives us strength to act and make a change.