Yeah, I think it's related to anger somehow... I'd take the bus rather than ask a family member for a ride when they're hanging out watching TV with their car in the driveway. It's wierd, I've been working on it for years and I still do it. Thanks for the words, I'm trying to live for positive reasons but it's hard cause it throws all my motivation on it's head, I've always lived for anger. I still think theres a lot of strength in it but it's sure not healthy.