Bah that is even worse , my illnes heals over time with years , it will al become better in the end this was his plan for me , if i would not have got sick i would never have found god , that is why i call my undiagnosed illnes a blessing in a curse , maybe that is why nothing came out of my bloodwork this was my test , still do not understand what the point was for the major personality change and severe deppresion if i just needed time to find him. But it seems you really need a miracle , i will try and pray for you if i even do not know how , do we pray to the father or the son or both?