Thank you? What about pulling your socks up and moving on.
Self condemnation is the pathway to Depression in the real world.
You have read the Bible umpteen times and where has it got you eh?
It's not enough to have Gods love, you prefer to wallow in Satan's self pity and suffer its consequences.
You let no-one near you only this constant plea of forgiveness which has already been given you.
If you really believe in Jesus then you would listen to Him and put all your troubles behind you.
Bless you Rainy, bless you.