Need a bit of help please

I've done nine Liver Flushes so far, three or four bowel cleanses, total dental revision, parasite cleanse, and added all kinds of supplements, vitamins, superfoods, extra water, magnesium, exercise and I juice and eat whole foods and oils.

A few months ago I went in for blood tests and a checkup just to make sure I'm fine and see if there was any physical reason for Depression which seems to come and go but mostly hang around in the background. Was it hormone imbalance, thyroid issues, adrenal problems or what?

I'm in perfect health, he says, perfect hormone levels, cholesterol etc. So I asked him why do I still have this depression? I don't want to "fix" the Depression - I wanted to find out what was causing it and fix that! He gave me the usual crap about brain chemistry and gave me a prescription for Welbutrin because I took it for four years and it really worked well for me. Great. Of course I didn't fill it.

But yesterday I felt so bad I actually called the pharmacy and had them fill it. I didn't pick it up though - luckily with the hurricane they are only open for a couple of hours a day.

I'm so discouraged! All this cleansing and revamping my diet; I spend most of the day reading curezone, I feel like I've tried everything and here it still is. I have three theories:
1. Maybe it's a delayed stress reaction from the hurricanes. I don't think so but... It was stressful but I survived and didn't lose anything major. I have some family staying with me which is causing some stress, but if I wasn't so depressed I probably wouldn't mind them so much.
2. Possibly related to my last Liver Flush two weeks ago which wasn't very productive and I seem to feel worse ever since. I'm going to do another one Thursday and see if that helps. It's just awfully discouraging because wouldn't you think after nine flushes it would clear up? It's not like I have to hide the razorblades, I just don't feel like getting out of bed.
3. Hate to say it but maybe I should just take the meds long enough to find my bootstraps to pull myself out of this? I miss feeling enthusiastic and basically having a life outside of my bed! Spending days laying around in tears is probably worse than taking a pharmaceutical for a short time and having a fun healthy life, right?

So, I feel like a drunk with the mantra of One Day At A Time. If I can just make it through one more day without taking the Wellbutrin! I'm trying to hang on till Thursday when I'm doing flush #10. If that doesn't work I just don't know. I've spent over a year cleansing and spent thousands of dollars and don't feel one bit better for it today. I REALLY hate to post this, because I would hate to discourage anybody but I'm really down right now and hope somebody can see something here I'm missing.

Any opinions are welcome!

And no, Roky, I don't have any mercury fillings anymore :)