I feel for you. I know just how it feels. I am the same way. I have a good degree but I can't put it to good use because of my condition. I am living every single day at home now. I only go out once a week and feel the trauma of the ridicule and laughter the following week.
I smell worst as a garbage dump. I'm not exaggerating. I am beginning to see myself as a trash too -- an environmental hazard. My neighbors children get sick because of me. People including my family gets chronic cough because of my presence. I think by dying I will be doing them a favor. It is for the good of everybody. My life is done anyway. How can someone who smells worst as a garbage dump live?