Re: Damaged
Sorry to hear this.
You say that you don't suffer from low self-esteem. I beg to differ. With better self-esteem, you would have been aware that you didn't have to put up with him and would have moved on. Too many people (male and female) feel that if they were to dump a bad person, that they would always be alone.
You fell into the trap of thinking --- If I did______ then he will be happy and won't abuse me again. Thus you allowed the vicious cycle to continue.
My goodness! When you heard that he was convicted of manslaughter, you should have run for the hills!
Is he now in jail for what he did to you? If not, then why not? If he is in jail, you will be safe as long as he is there.
Any chance that you could move to either Istanbul or Ankara? In a big city, you would be able to get proper medical care. Perhaps you can go to another country's embassy and request asylum.
In the meantime, please try to get help---not only for your physical injuries but for your psychological ones, too.