Dear Finally Free,
Wish I could reach out and hug you... I so understand. In the end they make you feel like the crazy ones, especially if they are high functioning, because to the regular world they are ok most of the time..
I wish you future happiness, and the others on this link. We have so much to give just need the right recipient..
We must know and understand as we read the similarities... that the ones we loved have this and we must heal ourselves now. We have a chance to be happy, they sadly don't unless they wake up and make the serious effort to get mentally well.