Re: Questions
Dear Chrisb1,
My OA was recently diagnosed. It is felt only on my right hip, and at the beginning stage. It does not hurt all the time. It shows itself in pain when I am doing things like dressing or walking down or up stairs. For example, my right leg range of movement is somewhat limited and it hurts when I try to put on pants while standing (I need to sit down to be able to do that). I also need to go upstairs by using "side steps", not to hurt. I do not have that problem with my left leg. Naturally, it is something that will only advance if I do not do anything to stop it. I understand it can only hurt and limit more if I allowed it to advance. It would be more difficult to heal (IF) if I allow it to progress.
My fear of fasting is not fear of the fasting itself in the physical sense, but fear of the emotional components of fasting itself. I will need to face my "demons" or those life situations that I never wanted to face, that I did not want to act on, because they are simply painful. I have used food as a temporary and daily relief for my emotional pain. I know that is a dangerous circle that can only bring me more reasons to feel frustrated and hurt. As an adult I do understand that problems do not go away just for ignoring them, they get worse. But I have been infantile about this truth, and for many years. I know that no amount of food will solve my life problems, and that these can only augment in number and size if I keep on eating to just dumb the pain for a while. Life it is such a misery for me! Nevertheless, I am not bitter about it. I know it has been only my making and that I can rescue myself back if I want to and simply do it.
"Like any illness, you have to face it head on, and be prepared to do whatever it takes.."
Your words are very comforting. You are soooo right!!
I just ordered those 2 books you mention. The one from Shelton, "FASTING FOR RENEWAL OF LIFE" is the one that calls more my attention.
"Shelton, when asked what would be the best time to fast or what is the best preparation would reply: NOW. Forget the preparation and JUST DO IT. There is no time like the present and procrastination will only fuel your reasons not to begin at all and with a variety of excuses."
That is so indeed, cause I have noticed it myself. The mind, so tricky, creates excuses to procrastinate.
I will start my fast, dear Chrisb 1. I will face my old demons and regain my long time lost health. There are so many things that I still want and need to do with my life!
Oh yes, I want to do it. I want to feel that life is worth living, and experience the joy to live, that joy I lost years ago!
I will start soon, and will try to post frequently here. After all, I need your guidance and the guidance of other members of the forum.
(you have touched my heart. THANK YOU)