I'll never get well

Believe it or not, I have an ex boss that doesn't like me and does all he can to DESTROY my health. They put a dead bird outside my bedroom window that I found today, because, dead is how they want me to be and I'll soon be.

I can't say what / if earhthing has done anything. My ex boss doesn't want anything good to happen to me. He was born to kill me and he won't stop being incredibly mean to me until I'm dead.

Every day he makes people say things, good and not good, and it's hard for me to tell who's being themselves and who is saying what he told them to say, and *I* have to pay for anything wrong I may say or feel, even though he has DESTROYED my trust in most people.

I live alone, and have for decades, and he can focus on making me his 100% victim. He WANTS me to live alone. I think he prevents me from ever having any good friend. I have no good friend to advise me on how I should feel. If I do something he doesn't think is right, no one tells me what I did was wrong, or they thought what I did was wrong, they just infuse inhalants and make me go for weeks with no sleep so that I become a walking zombie, then they try to make people NOT run away from me. Inhalants that make me sick and I have to try to decide what I did wrong. No one told or suggested to me to apologize to my sister. I was still wondering if what she said was really her or if it was him. I was too tired to feel good or think straight and trying to let my body recover from cerebral allergy and too much water kefir.

He's determined to send me to my grave., I'm hoping my life will end. I'm fed up with it. This isn't living. I hate him and he hates me. He doesn't understand how anyone can feel tired and irritable at times when and if they drink too much live yeasts in water kefir and have a very unique and complex body and have cerebral allergy.. He hates me. I was brought up to think that anyone that does anything behind people's backs are bad people, and he does EVERYTHING behind people's backs. Life sucks, then I die. This ain't living. This is a real life nightmare and I want out. It just goes from one nightmare to the next one. I've paid way too much for things that seemed minute to me. It's no longer worth it.

They even took away my only pride and joy, my motorcycle. I can't believe it. I thought I'd just recover from the water kefir over dosage and intentional allergy but he wants to turn this into a permanent thing. You see, he's punishing me for being very sick after he exposed me to an inhalant allergy [that he's done to me dozens of times in the last 24 years]. I was so sick I couldn't even tell if my sister was being herself or one of his umpteen little gopher liars. You wouldn't BELIEVE how mean this man has been to me. You really wouldn't and couldn't imagine it. If you knew what I'd been through you'd want to end it too.
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