Re: Slowly dying... Need help/advice on what to do

ok I have read what others said and did not understand you were bed ridden...I wet on the fact you said you might be able to move in with a friend and if you can, that is what you should do..noone at any age should be forced to take dangerous phycotrophic drugs..

Also she is inadvertently harming you by implying she thinks you are nuts and her over-worrying. I feel you should try to see if maybe a relative or friend can help and let you stay there for a while to do what you feel is necessary.

As far as candida, there is also the slower way of Dr Gabriel Cousens' phase one diet of Dr Gabriel cousens book lean, green live food cuisine is supposed to cure candida in 3-6 months and then you move on to his phase 1.5 or phase 2 diet..it is 100% raw. I saw after I wrote this sometime else mentioned it but try that 20 day program in my earlier post first.

Regarding that slippery elm, montreal mentioned. I remember on one of Dr Christopher's video, he mentioned a child whose esophagus was so badly damaged and burned as a toddler after drinking sometime toxic that he could eat no food and they keep him alive decades when they did some surgery and said he could eat and I think it killed him or something but the slippery elm was all he ate for decades and he was living ok. Schulze also used it on a boy wasting away who could not even hold down water but he had to give it just a spoon at a time. so that is a good suggestion.

Try the green juices and or/smoothies to see if that helps you hold onto your weight better and do add the slippery elm gruel.

Email me for those links to the incurables program and watch it with your mom..even if it does not convince hr, this should give you hope that anything can be healed. I feel the full incurables program would be in order personally.

If you do not think it would be harmful, maybe adding some rejuvelac and wheatgrass juice would be of help..it is easy to make and grow both..do not use a blender though as it will break a blender. If you cannot afford a wheatgrass juicer either chew the wheat grass or cut it into 3/4 inch pieces and blend with water and then strain it to try to at least get some of the benefits. With wheat grass juice, you want to start at one ounce or less and gradually work up to about 8 oz maximum. Add apple juice if desired to make it taste better. the rejuvelac is a living food, healthy and has probiotics. also someone in my raw food group eats seed cheese for probiotics. this way you are adding some healthy foods (if you can or want to consume them) that are also probiotics and healing.

Also people have gotten rid of candida I think with food grade hydrogen peroxide but you need to see the dosing and do some research..the die off effect may be too strong for you. drink some ginseng tea sun brewed and take some raw garlic to try to overcome some of the weakness.

Best of luck and hang in their..pray about it too and trust God to help you do what you need, and with the mom situation. Look how much you know already..you are far beyond most people in knowing how to heal yourself..focus on the positive and try to trust and keep learning and if you can see if you can show your mom those hacres.com testimonies...maybe go there and read some pick out the most wonderful and paste the link and have her read all those so she can see the tremendous power of foods and raw foods from someone else as she obviously does not believe you unfortunately ,,many relatives are like this..they think doctors know everything. As Schulze points out when doctors say there is no cure or something natural will not help you what they are really saying is there is nothing I know or believe that can help you, or I was taught or believe that natural thing will not help. there have not seen every case to know everything like they think..change the variable of being the average person and you can change the outcome..in your case, it might be that they are not experienced, or competent or thinking about your case long enough to know what is wrong but they aren't going to say that so they say nothing is wrong it is all in your head..for most it is not. You know what you feel.

In most cases, we are often on our own..I have a complex case too one that I just got another puzzle piece that is entering into my own health nightmare that I did not know for 18 years as noone including myself knew I had a hard to diagnose thing that is exacerbating other illnesses. I know what it is like to be mad and be be completely on my own. How can a doctor help when they do not even have 10 minutes to hear your symptoms and then rush on to the next patient in the overbooked office. How can they put the time in that is necessary to figure out cases so complex that I who think and research all the time can;t for all my intelligence and knowledge. No sadly we are on our own in most cases that are not simple things.

Of course, Schulze says healing yourself is easy (title of one of his tapes) essentially stop doing what hurts you and start doing what helps you. I would have to say that your mom is not helping things...you yourself know this and you must figure out a way to do this without her inadvertently hurting you. If not you, who? So think aobut it, pray about it, make a list of pros and cons, make a lists of how to solve those cons or things holding you back in some creative way that acts. Time is a wasting as they say...

Remind your mom that even anorexics who eat nothing live much longer than one would think and if you are talking in juices you may have a higher nutrient diet than most Americans for instance do. It is too bad she cannot see this. You would be taking in nutrient dense foods even though in liquid form..far better than many people on the street eat.

Plus thin people live longer all the studies say. But try adding those greens to help slow the weight loss. I just read that in bvoutenkgo's book that people who had to keep going back to cooked or animal foods due to losing too much weight and going back and forth their whole life fixed this challenge when they added a lot of the green juices/smoothies and all those highly nutritious greens.

I do identify with you plight and your family...everyone thought I was a nut until I stopped two of my mom;s heart attacks in progress when nitro did nothing..when my mom seeing how that worked tried some tinctures I left she was so stunned how they caused her to not get deathly sick or sick at all that she finally after ten years of fighting everything I said and any natural healing was convinced at long last I knew what I was doing..she consented to try Schulze etc (sadly as we were ordering the herbs she had her 9th dialysis caused heart attacks, noone gave her the stuff I left and the hospital killed her. But yeah they all thought and probably do still think I am crazy and know nothing. It hurts but the most important thing is I know it helps and so do you. So focus on that ok even though it is hard to not be supported or understood. The fact your mom took it so far is especially sad

Noone in my family offers any support except one brother and only by letting me talk and going out with me. We often are on our own but you have found a good support system here. we hope our relatives will care and get us and be there for us but often they are not..it is not always that they do not care but sometimes people just do not know as much as they think they do and it is hard to break through all that indoctrination. Keep on --keeping on..you have come a long way already. You are important..your life is important and you have to fight to be here and put yourself first for now that later you can help all the more people. Hang in there,,hey chin up ok