Re: Slowly dying... Need help/advice on what to do

First of all, thanks to all of you who are trying to help. I really really appreciate that.

I have to say though that I was surprised by some posts. I didn't plan to do that but if it can help people understand my situation, I'm gonna say few things about me.
First, I am in no way sick mentally, and I'm very conscious about the power of the mind on the body. I'm not specially a stressed person, and I know there is a way out of this mess. Of course, sometimes I get down and get depressed: who wouldn't in my case... But I'm not making this all thing up or exaggerating in anyway when I say I'm slowly dying (and believe it or not, I'm not the kind to complain, quite the opposite): it's been more than one year now that I am bedridden, stuck at home, had to stop my studies, can't see friends, can't do anything basically. Even going for a 5 minute walk to buy my food is a battle. And all that, for a social and active person like I am, is a NIGHTMARE, aside from all the physical suffering. Plus, imagine what it's like to be forced (by your own mother and your doctor) to stay in a psych ward for 6 weeks under massive doses of antipsychotics, benzos, antidepressors (I had all that at once. And in NO WAY do I need any psycho drugs, believe me). The only way to get out of the hospital was to fake to all that I was getting better physically. Although I was suffering more and more everyday. And I could go on with what I had to pass through this past year, but I'll just stop here.

Since few days, it came to the point where I just CANT eat anymore. I don't know if many of you already experienced that, but I seriously doubt so: when I say I can't, I really can't. It's not a lack of hunger you can get when you're ocasionnally sick. Eating now is just like a torture for my sick body.

Regarding diets, I tried many of them long time ago already, and they don't work (for me at least). Every great natural healer (Christopher, Schulze, Gerson, Breuss... Uny!) understood that: a very sick body can not process well solid foods anymore, and at this point eating just make things worth. juicing is the key here.

I am a firm believer in Uny's IP program, and after all I experimented this past year, I know that only this can help me. I am ready to fight as hard as I can to get my life back, and if it means I have to suffer even more before getting better (detoxing when severly sick is sometimes hardcore...), I'm ready for that.

But what is really "killing" me is that my body is telling me that I need to fast in order to get better. And, with my mother around, I just can't do that. Fasting involves weight loss, and if I lose more weight, I know she will just send me back to the hospital.
The only way would be to move to some other place than home, but I don't see where else I could follow the IP program... :-(


Thanks again to all of you who are trying to help, it means a lot to me. Tweet