"I'm not going to defend what I believe to someone doing that to me."
Are you the content of your mind or something beyond these filters? Can anything (words) be "done to you?"
Perhaps a "victim" resonance has been stimulated?
You are free to take on all kinds of things from outside yourself to wear as spiritual filters. People do this all the time and this is how they become influenced. Is that freedom? Or is that cloning/repeating?
It is choice.
Perhaps enlightenment is seeing beyond the story. Then rewriting it while knowing it is just a story.
With infinite potential there is nothing to defend.