Spiritual life is about the death of the ego,the sacrifice of the ego. Nothing is gained. That is why Narcissus prefers to make it a search so as to avoid the sacrifice. http://www.beezone.com/AdiDa/Method/understanding.html
""" "You've made up your mind, filled it up with "psy-op-agism" and there's no room for any new knowledge. No wonder you don't believe in learning. How convenient."
I can tell by your passive aggressive energy that this has hit a nerve. Keep exploring and you may find the death of some sacred cows will bring deeper peace and freedom."""