No offense intended, none taken by me. Be this as it may, I do agree with 108 on this in as much that much of what you explained has the ring of new age doctrine to it. However, if that is where you currently are in your path/journey, that is where you are.
" Life begins after we "die". " This might be somewhat off topic, but I'm curious where you got that particualr saying from. It is very similar to the credo of the Aiel culture, a creation of James Rigby AKA "Robert Jordan". I believe the way he wrote this credo it goes something like "we all live the dream until we die, when we awake from the dream", or something like that.