Re: Feeling sad

Thanks for this wonderful post! This is my very first time posting on curezone after few years of reading and learning here.At this moment, I am also feeling sad for all that's been happening in my marriage. I have the same experience with my husband being nice for sometime and then suddenly flip, this has been going on for 8 yrs now.I also never feel really happy coz everytime I know the good times are gonna end to violence,name calling, degradation, racial insults.Sometimes, I blame myself, thinking that if when he's having his rage, I should just be more patient and just keep quiet and just take in everything he says and does to me and our 2 kids that conflicts would be avoided.This is what our asian culture dictates. The last time he slashed at me was when we were in his parents house in Jakarta, he's always meaner and bossier there, his mom said that as a wife I should be more "tolerant".
Now , we had a big argument and he mentioned he wants to divorce me. I feel really betrayed, after all these years of bearing with his abuse for the sake of the children, he wants to divorce me. I feel that he's feeling towards me has changed coz he's more successful now in his business and when we argue he always mentions of finding a better wife. I dont know what that means coz all I do is devote myself to him and the kids just like agood asian wife does.
I'm really scared right now, coz he threaten that he would send me back to my own country with nothing, not even the children. He said that if I fight him that he could send me to prison by telling the authorities that I am here in this country illegally. He said he could pay people to do that.
I'm scared but I know that this has to finish. I feel like a failure.
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