First, I want to say that I am a survivor of a benzodiazepine and a couple other antidepressant drugs. I use the term "survivor" because it will test you to the very core of your being until you are free. Getting off the drugs will be something you will have to really want to do. I really wanted them gone out of my system.
It was a struggle, but I made it. I broke the chains and got away from them.
"The rebound effect is awful". Yes. It IS awful.
How bad do you want to work to free yourself from these awful drugs?
I wanted to live. I hope you do, too.