Your health issues are mostly being caused by the drugs. All the symptoms you relate.
Of course, I believe the parasites are causing the health issues, too. There were parasites in existence before you got on the drugs. They were causing anxiety. Then came the drugs. Both SSRi's and antianxiety drugs cause depression and anxiety. So you can see it is a revolving mess of trouble that only makes you spiral downward.
ALSO, one reason (other than life's depressing happenings) why people get depressed is because they have something wrong with their digestion, maybe, and they are not assimilating the food they are eating. A dirty colon. It is a fact that amino acids are the building blocks of protein. When one is depleted in protein, then how can the neurotransmitters of your brain work right? Your brain uses 25% of all the nutrients you take into your body daily. If the bugs are eating a lot of that, then how can you stay nourished? It is a situation that keeps getting worse and worse if the digestion is bad. Add the drug poisons on top of that and what do you have? A congested liver, dirty colon, dirty blood and lymph that is probably backed up. Cancer? Is that what this is?
The drugs make it easier for your body to be taken over by more parasites, because they destroy your liver and your immune system. Your blood can't get rid of the poisons. Your liver can't do it anymore. the poisons just back up in your system.
I gave reference to a source that will help you that is affordable. Go to the Pain and Stress Center in San Antonio, Texas. They are the experts at getting people off the drugs. I know their protocol, I have done their protocol, but I am not working thru cyberspace to help with this.
These are the people who helped ME. I also had someone at home who could be a support to me while I was going thru all this.
You need to become a patient of theirs. Call them @ 1-800-669-2256 and ask to be connected to the clinic. Their website is :
http://www.painstresscenter.com

I have no idea what you are on except you say the SSRI drug. You need to work closely with a professonal at this clinic over the phone. You might be asked to have a blood test so they can determine the replacement nutrients for you to take while you are getting off the drugs. They will put the stuff back into your system that will heal you as you are coming off the drugs. It will shorten the time it takes to do this and will also help with the withdrawal symptoms, SOME. Not a whole lot, tho.
Prepare for a struggle, but I am convinced that it is entirely possible if one wants to live.
Staying on the drugs only will make you go downhill more and more all the time.
IMO, getting off the drugs first is the way to go. I do not know how intense the withdrawal symptoms can get for an individual if they detox too fast. It is dangerous to detox too fast.
With the SSRI, you could be off it in a couple of months and be ready to do this program. I don't know what else you are on. If a benzo, then it will take longer. The benzo has to go first. Do not try to detox off both drugs at once. Only one at a time.
You will get the instructions and help from this clinic I mention, if you so desire.
Good luck.

HI
One more post to you.
I know you can do it. I know I can't be there in person to give you the courage to keep fighting every day. If I could, I would be there to put my arms around you and encourage you. I CAN encourage you thru cyberspace. I CAN tell you that A.A. gave me a lot of help.
The first thing I felt was SHOCK when I realized what the doctors had done to me. When I first felt the withdrawal symptoms that I had to deal with. The next thing I did was get real MAD!! I suffered for a while, but I was going to win in the end and that is what I kept telling myself. I WILL WIN over these BASTARDS that did this to me. This is the first time I have ever written a vulgarity, but listen, this IS serious. It is going to take all you have to do this.
I've been there, done that, probably beaten terminal with Doc's program here and I encourage you to just take one day at a time and do the same. Know that there are those who have gone before you and WON THE BATTLE!!!
If you need someone to talk to, I can offer my help in that. I just prefer you work with someone like you will find at the Pain and Stress center, also.
You can work with these people out of your home. You don't have to go anywhere and spend a huge amount of money. Just stay in touch with those who understand and can help you.

More on my experience. Don't let age stop you. I was in my 50's when I started this journey, too. It CAN be done! Get mentally tough and stubborn as hell, and you will make it!

You might check out the Budwig Protocol, for several reasons. It was developed by a biochemist to heal cancer(1st reason, since you had it). It mixes flaxseed oil with cottage cheese(you hate the smell, but when you mix it this way it is totally different). It is a great protocol for virtually all health problems. I feel better after doing it for less than one month. I have adrenal fatigue and other problems. I use the yahoo group flaxseedoil2, which is great.
Vern

HI:
I got lots to say here, but I have been there. Please realize what I am saying is going to be helping you.
You will come off the benzo first. What I used, and what was prescribed for me, and is prescribed for just about everyone at the Pain and Stress Center is L-theanine--2 capsules emptied into a glass of distilled water with 7 drops of magnesium chloride in it before bed. This IS all pharmaceutical grade stuff. Pharmaceutical grade, in this instance, means that it does not have any fillers or other stuff that will dilute the effects of the one thing that you are taking that targets the anxiety. It is quite concentrated.
I am going to be honest with you. You WILL suffer from insomnia no matter what you take to counterract it for a while. These drugs are powerful. The effects of them in your system last for a while. Aything natural that you take is overridden by these powerful drugs. They are meant to kill.
This will help, tho.
Please take all this information I have given you seriously. I do not know how the drugs affect YOUR body. But this information is practically universal in how the drugs affect any person's body if they have been on them any length of time. The fact that you have HAD cancer in the past, says to me that you are not going to have too easy a time of it because you are really toxic. That doesn't mean your chances for getting healthy again are any less than they are for any of us on this forum. So please take that as some encouragement.
My other advice would be to to go to a detox center and get off the benzo drug. That is covered by health insurance. It is advisable if you want to shorten up the time before you can do these cleansing programs successfully. Then get on a nutritional regimen. The Pain and Stress Center is my recommendation for that.
If you have successfully done some colon cleansing in the past, then that will sure help, IMO. I have used Barefoot's LBB and found it does a good job. Dr. Richard Schulze's cleansing products are also recommended here, too. Do them as directed, or they will not work very well.
You can google Schulze or go to the Barefoot forum and get on his website to order his products.
Detoxing the colon will go a long ways in helping you and will help you feel better and to absorb the nutrients you take in.
The drug is definitely instrumental in causing the anemia. This will resolve itself with the cleansing programs and the feeding, but you might need to have some help along the way with it as you are getting off the drugs. You gotta maintain your present level of health and improve it, if you can, as quickly as you can. Do the best you can with good food and the fruit juices. Doc recommends the Standard Process natural vitamins that you can get by googling standard Process off the internet if you have no practitioner in your area who distributes them The B vitamins are vital to you right now. They also help with the anxiety. Doc used a lot of it when he was recovering.
The Anxiety Control 24 is what I used when I got off the drug. That has the GABA in it and other aminos that help with the anxiety. But, you have to be on a balanced amino acid supplement, too, along with it. You need to be treated on an individual basis with your needs on that one.

http://www.naturamart.com
distributes them on the internet.

Some melatonin helps me and some doesn't. I found that the best one also had Vit B 6 in it; this seems to help a lot. The dose to take is 3mg at one time. Later if you can't sleep you might take another 3mg, but thats enough for one day.
Vern

Pioneer, Doc10, etc.
Thank you for the information. I did go through the Pain and Stress Center web site and talked with the dr. who has been working with me. Very interesting that the first thing he suggested was the L Theanine, C's and Omega fish oil.
I am mad at the drugs and the drs out there. I have had five family members die of cancer over a five year period with the last one being my mother. I was her caregiver and the person with medical power of attorney. No one in the world prepares you for that, felt like I was pulling the trigger, signing those papers! I was diagnosed and operated on one month after her death. I didn't need all the cheme and radiation, but I was terrified when told that without it, I possibly could have a reoccurence. So when I couldn't sleep, I would have a glass or two (or more) of wine to go to sleep. I have no doubt that there are parasites and a congested liver, if not damaged, going on here. Yes, I take full responsibility for the things I have created in my life. But there is not any truth being told about these drugs, including the chemo and radiation!!!!! I had a hysterectomy two years ago when my oncologist, who I will never see again, saw a cyst on my ovary, which doesn't necessarily mean anything. She came into my hospital room after the surgery and said, Well guess what everything was fine, perfectly normal! (so why did you take it out? - I know the answer to that, cause I signed the papers) She didn't tell me I would feel like I hit a brick wall a year later (low estrogen, low testostorene and no detectable progestorone). After all those lies, then, there are the lies about these meds not being addictive! Ha, Ha Ha!!! Not Funny!
And, doc, my family is all army, we have "fight" in our blood. We were out in the driveway in the mornings, with my dad, exercising before breakfast when nobody was even up. Funny, my mother decided that juicing was going to cure her cancer (she had always been into health food, we didn't eat candy, cake, and stuff other kids did when we were growing up). She juiced everyday, but wouldn't give up her cigarettes. She survived a tumor in her throat and colon cancer, but pancreatic cancer was too much.
I don't know for sure that this is the right track - I think that it is. I now have vivid "dreams" when I know that I am awake but what I am experiencing in my head is just as real, that is terrifying to me. I know that this is not living, I have no real motivation, no sex drive and no real desire to be with my family. How can it be any worse off of these things? I was depressed after my divorce - crying everyday, felt like I was walking through mud, but no one suggested that my thyroid and hormones could have been out of whack. I have done therapy for years, I have finally gotten to some core issues so I know that that plays as a factor. But, I do remember life without meds and feeling normal, having a sex drive, and laughing and having fun and hurting and being sad. I want that back - I don't believe that life is lived feeling dull. I am scared and nervous about withdrawal. But, I do believe that I have many more years left and I do believe that I am the only one who can restore my health. It sure as hell won't be the pharma drs. I guess there will be days when I act like it, till I really feel like it. Sorry for the rant, it probably is this bundle of nerves that I am feeling going into all of this. I've done so many other things that I was afraid of doing, and I have survived, guess I can do this, too.