Re: Is it human nature to be with the same person for so long?

Wow, your question, What is it about him I love? How does he feed my soul? That is very insightful of you. I guess it's the hope I hang on to. The hope that we will one day be that fun, cheery, happy couple we were in the beginning. I think my love is more for what we had, than where we are now. I am loving the old him thinking, I know he has it in him, he's done it." He does not feed my soul. He just does not. Gosh, I feel so alone. I feel as if I'm picking the petals from a flower, leave him, stay, leave him, stay....then I get to the leave him petal and shrink into a hole and hide so I don't have to face it. I am almost certain I need to at least try moving out, but I am so afraid of his reaction and his family's. His family knows nothing. They are good people and love me dearly. I love them too. I have much respect for them.
After prompted by my sharing feelings with him he replied with some thoughts today. He is upset because our 7 year old son doesn't show interest in farming. (He's 7!)! He also fessed up to all I've laid on the table and asked me to please hang tight through this farming season. I agree with him, but he does not have the greatest track record in following through either. Unless, of course it's farm related.

I want to kindly thank you for your reply post. It feels so wonderful to have an opinion out there to help me through this. It means so very much!