really pushing my luck...

wow,seen her again today and I swore I thought I was going to get into trouble or
something,I imagine her keeping all those e-mails I sent her and turning me in
for harassment even though i friggin ignore her now.I was getting a few dirty/concerned
looks from the girls she was working near,not sure if she has a big mouth or not,maybe
I am just being paranoid.She messaged me again acting like everything was cool but
I feel like she is reeling me in a little more before reporting me.
):

I am walking on eggshells for the next few weeks,though I still of course
flirt with the girls in my department..they are harmless (though cute lol)

I feel like such a jerk because I was right,I just don't like her the way I used to
anymore,not sure why but it all just went away.And I liked this girl ALOT,I feel bad for sweet talking her so much and making so many empty promises and romancing her
soo deeply thinking that what I was feeling was soo genuine..I just haven't felt that
way in such a long time and at the time I really thought it was right..and now just
leaving her it makes me feel like such a flooze a sham,a douche.I said so much crap
but at the first sign of trouble I bailed lol.

oh well,better now than later on,I really believe I would have just broken her
heart,gotten fired and have her brothers after me.I got a raise today,I was so
scared I was going to get into trouble as well for this incident.
yikes.

From now on I am just going to keep things casual,as in friends but flirting only.