Re: weird feelings

i am drunk and all these thoughts keep on coming out randomly,
i am a coward..it pains me to show any type of genuine care or emotions,
she is very young and wears her heart on her sleeves,fearless of even me...
i am deeply troubled,that's no surprise,her willingness to accept me with open
arms both makes me happy yet frightens me terribly,i have opened up a little,
pushed her away,ignored her and made mad faces at her yet she seems unnerved by
it all...is it me that won't accept me or me that won't accept her;kindness?

without my walls,I am nothing..nobody,but a boy that I once was..heartbroken,
empty and confused.Not even my wiener holds the answers in this one,for it used
to be my only reliable compass in these types of situations,foreshadowed only
by my heart that beats so loudly when she is near it's hard to ignore,
i am simply a loss at what to do and how to feel at this point..i still don't
know why she has such an effect on me..i want to grab her tightly,never letting her
go,as well as yelling at the top of my lungs for her to leave me alone...

bitter sweet isn't it?? tragically sad yet somehow i am soo drawn to it all...