I feel guilty in a way but it's really better off that she is not with me.I would only consume her totally and then leave her heartbroken.I did this all the time in my youth,I liked someone very intensely,I get what I thought I wanted from them..be it attention,affection,desire or lust and when I felt as if I got it,my feelings go away.
It's going to take alot more then a sweet smile or butt to capture my attention for the long run,not sure what it is yet.