Re: I can't get over it. I know you guys dislike the guy

I think that um...when we fought before, I was a little immature and selfish about things because I didn't ever think about the fact that I might actually lose him.

I can't even tell you why I started getting his stuff together...I just felt threatened and didn't want to feel like the victim. Now I do, though.

Since he's been gone, I've felt ACTUAL loss. I've never felt that with him before because I always knew he'd be there. Now that I actually had to face reality, I know what I was doing wrong and I know it was not only toxic for the relationship, but also for myself personally.
And since I've had that realization, I've started reading, Don't Sweat the Small Stuff...and it's only reinforced all the plans I made to be a better person. And all the things I was doing wrong in the relationsip.

I was stressed out with school and work and expected him to feel that stress with me...when I didn't really need to be stressed out in the first place.

Sure it's been bad before. But ever since he moved 8 hours to get back with me, he was doing pretty well. He didn't really do anything major that I would call off a relationship for. I realy feel like an idiot.