glad I wrote all of this down instead of focusing so much on my insecurities and issues going on.I mean,I am not avoiding them but in general I feel better when writing/talking about what I want and enjoy doing rather then sulking or discussing certain issues.By focusing so much on what I didn't want,I ended up missing out and forgetting what I do want lol.I think I like this route better..I think I will always be moody and will have bad really no good crummy days for whatever reason,the important thing is..to just live anyways lol.Don't take it personal,don't dwell or mope..just keep on living,be moody,be grumpy,be whatever for that time being- live through it and just be..it will pass.Just stay alive and don't get thrown in jail during those bad times (wouldn't be the first lol)