Re: this may be off topic, but relevant.

you are right about the strong willed part,one of the main reasons I have enjoy the warrior diet for so long..it takes ALOT of discipline and willpower.It makes me feel good when I have to struggle..always hungry and ready.Living in that constant state of hunger during the day...makes me feel alive interestingly.

maybe I am confusing my mood shifts or bipolar with my frustration and immobilization??

what I mean is,whenever I get really really really angry and frustrated..everything shifts,my thoughts,my feelings,desires..everything.But when I feel great,I feel like I can do anything and everything,though the only thing that never changes (not too much anyways) are my actions,I always do what needs to be done regardless of my moods (what I feel like I MUST do in order to get ahead) though when it comes to personal issues like relationships or love stuff..I get so flustered,confused,hurt and just upset..and then I close up,this is a pretty normal cycle for me.It's nearly impossible to be with anyone really because I will love you one day and hate you the next,maybe for no particular reason then taking something personal when it was never meant to be.

It's like I am splintered inside..thats why I consider myself bipolar..