I'm sorry for your experience but Kevan its not too late to turn it around. If you could read the book by Dr. Robert O. Young its called PH miracle for weightloss.I beleive it will change your life, it changed mine. Its not necessarily for weightloss it applies to everything and everyone in any circumstance. Yes it may sound too good to be true but you can start by checking out his website. PHMiracleliving.com you got nothing to loose and everything to gain. good luck, god bless. Don't ever give up.