Re: Off Topic~Thirty Years Ago This Week
Hopinso,
my heart goes out to you. You are an incredibly beautiful human being - please stop being hard on yourself. Eventually, whether on this side of the "veil" or on the other, you will understand why things happened the way they did. One thing I can tell you for sure: none of it was your fault.
Having lost 2 people I LOVED deeply within 5 days of each other, (got my first Fibromyalgia symptoms the very day, at the very time of her death, only learned about it the next day) and 2 others, within 7 months of each other, I think I have a good idea of how you feel. October is not a good month for me, either. But somehow, we go on.
Please do whatever it takes to feel better. Let us know if there's anything we can do to help. I love you, and I am sure, although I can't speak for them, countless CZers do! Take heart, Hopinso, you are soooooo wonderfully Hoping! And a true inspiration to many of us.