acceptance

God Plasticat..Im so very sorry for how badly you are hurting. :(
I do understand...believe me. My Acne has gone back and forth between bad to very bad and only recently got SOMEWHAT better after starting flushing, but im still breaking out and now it goes between mild and bad. When I have a breakout it hurts me physically more than I care about my appearance, but I still suffer from it so I do understand.

I know you dont want to hear the same crap. I understand...Im not gonna say quit whining, although I understand the sentiment intended with that statement..because I have to tell myself that at times. It seems the worse you feel about it the worse you feel in general and then the worse it gets, etc. I guarantee stress is a part of it for you, as it is for me, but I understand its probably the hardest factor to change in your life. Excercise is helping for me a lot..and even if it doesnt help clear the skin it can help you get your mind off it and out of depression. Ive noticed a direct relationship with whether I work out on a particular day, and have a depressive "episode" or not. It seems every day I dont work out I have at least one irritable, freak out over nothing moment, start a fight with my boyfriend for little reason, or just a crying fit out of nowhere. The days I work out I feel more like a normal person and things like my skin and other health issues feel a little more "in perspective".

There IS a reason for everything...you may not see it now, but this can make you a stronger person, if you choose to let it. There are people with horrible disfigured faces and bodies that manage to live their lives and be loving, and be loved. It is an extremely hard thing to "accept" a disfiguring skin condition..but I think if you truly feel there is NO cure for you {and I dont think thats true, Im just going off what you are saying} then maybe for the time being trying to completely accept and learn to love yourself AS you are may be the best thing for you. Its hard I know...but you need to feel that even if this never gets better you will still be worthy of as good of a life as possible. I struggle with this everyday. You dont want to "accept" because it feels like giving up. But fighting this battle can be so tiring. Maybe you need a break before trying again...?

I hope so much that you feel better.