I've been upping my intake of ground flax seeds and hemp hearts, slowly, but daily...with veggie and egg breakfast.
But the same old slowness still plagues me. I mean it is only slightly more comfortable, and slightly larger each time...mostly once per day, sometimes less.
Still, the color is uniformly darker olive green...not the techincolor and stripes I had in the summer and fall. I suppose that means that the huge evacuation, after the soup, had some evening type of effect on the large intestine. Come to think of it, the technicolor I had (earlier in the year) must have meant that those movements came exactly like that from the small intestine. They must have been too firm to 'blend' in any way...more like 'deposits', rather than 'stool'. (That's the success I have been hoping for...emptying the SMALL intestine.)
I had been hoping that the flax and hemp seeds would be the answer, with Omega 3 (which Telman, on the
Liver Flush Forum , says does good things for the pancreas, small intestine, and liver, even helping the liver produce bile for the NEXT meal).
The amazing soup contained a complete large bunch of parsley; four or five fillets of sole (I think); milk with tapioca flour thickening; and was dished up on a bed of chopped raw spinach. Now, what could be in that to cause a complete evacuation of the entire large intestine? ...Yet become a constipated stool itself?
Maybe the fish was particularly mercury contaminated...sole is a bottom-feeder. If that was true, why would the body rush to evacuate the material AHEAD of it, and not the contamination itself?
Parsley affects the mercury in the mouth, I know, and I have enough of that, thank you very much, but the same question would apply...why would the body rush to evacuate the material AHEAD of it, and not the contamination itself?
Like I say, I had high hopes of the flax and hemp seeds, thinking that perhaps there was a build-up, but it doesn't seem to have helped on an on-going basis...only slightly, if that.
I was quite sure the soup had suddenly cleared some 'deposits', maybe even one or two
parasite partial blockages, and the current large gallstone...but I've seen nothing of them in eliminating the residue of the soup. I've felt that 'something' was moving along in the bowels...perhaps I am just slower than I imagined, and those things are still to come. I just don't know what to think.
I've read that the gel emitted by flax seeds is a fine lubricant, alone. Maybe I just haven't consumed enough at one time. I know that one teaspoon of whole flax seeds, boiled five minutes in two cups of water, is enough to gel that amount of water...and that it sets up rapidly as it begins to cool. So much so that one must hurry to sieve out the seeds, if that is what is desired. Cooled even slightly, the gel will just not go through the sieve. I have tried it.
Perhaps my dislike of magnesium oxide and magnesium sulphate (
Epsom Salts ) stems from some kind of chronic 'dehydration' in my system. (I read that some people have this condition...though I don't know how it works.) A professional once confirmed that excess body weight is actually water, not fat, so how could I be dehydrated at the same time?
Perhaps my thymus, or thyroid is involved...or the lymph system. There are twice as many lymph vessels as blood vessels, I read...and the only 'pump' for lymph is movement. Besides, we only eat for the energy to move, inside and out, and to think and feel and breathe. We have feet instead of roots.
I feel, for sure, that the liver is involved in this in some way. The 'stone' I feel today is in the 'back' of the liver area, not in the gallbladder. This is a new one from the one that may have passed with the soup, I believe.
Maybe I should go make another chowder, with salmon, or something. There's lots of fish in the freezer...add a little curry, and ginger and garlic...maybe onions. I have cilantro, arugula, and spinach, too.
But, first, a nap. I am a chronic insomniac...often sleeping in the daytime.
They tell me that the liver repairs between midnight and 2 a.m. If I am not asleep at that time, that could be a major source of liver stress.
I wonder if I could turn that around in a hurry, or if it is a long slow process, like everything else that puzzles me.
Thanks for letting me get all this out. [Pun not intended.]
F.
[So, I did sleep. In three increments. 1 1/2 to 2 hours each...because despite all my 'changes' I am right back to this schedule of urgent urinating. Sigh.
But, I had nice dreams. One mark for me! That's because I am certain that it is poisons circulating in the systems that cause disturbing, wild dreams...at least in my systems.
I dream in stories, mostly stories that could never happen...and often stories somewhat related to my former marriage...how I got rooked in every way. You see, there was a small business involved, and we both had put everything into it that we had. But we lost the marriage, because we just didn't have what it took to be happy at the same time.
People behaved badly, and I'm not going to say who...so there. There was no sexual infidelity, anyway...just an inability to interact appropriately while under great stress and responsibility. Never underestimate the power of the almighty dollar to make people very unhappy. The fear of not having enough to satisfy your commitments...your honor.
I am rambling here...while I drink my Humaworm toddy. Partly because I just had a little dream that we don't recognize the warmth and attention directed our way when we were younger and 'awful' things happened.
What I mean is that sometimes people did 'awful' things to us, not thinking they WERE awful. That they thought we could see how they felt warm and loving toward us, and we couldn't...because of our youth.
My dream vision suggested that we should be taught, right from the get-go, how to recognize another person's aura, and how to separate the appropriate from the inappropriate.
For one example, I married that guy to fulfill HIS needs, but not my own. There were many things I did not know in those days.
Much later I learned that I have quite strong feelings...actual patches of tingles and 'golden glows' (often in/on my upper arms) that tell me what is really happening...and allow me to choose the path I want to take.
The stuff they pedal in music and movies and so-called 'entertainment' can't hold a candle to ones own true bodily feelings...expected or not.
Now, THERE'S a subject we should be studying!
Because, what happens if we 'swallow' our true feelings, and substitute the 'canned' feelings sold to us?
Probably constipation!
Now I'm going to make fish and greens soup.
After I wrote the above speculation about mercury contamination, I read a blow by blow description of a real mercury poisoning from a single piece of fish. Wow!
No...I didn't have that.
For all my troubles, I ain't seen anything that awful!]
Onward...
Fledgling
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It's now the next day, and I have a couple of things to report.
I did all that sleeping yesterday, up to early evening, a little after 7 p.m., and stayed up until nearly morning this a.m., though I did sleep sitting up for a couple of hours. The thing is that I lost some of the 'urgency' to urination. Apparently more sleep helps...which leads me to believe that more hours of sleep, lying down, may help me to overcome this problem.
(Because I go through spells of catching urine in a chamber pot...I have to climb stairs to the bathroom...I've noticed tiny red snips of 'thread' on a couple of occasions. I think they are urinary parasites. A person wouldn't notice them in a toilet. For a person with a urinary urgency problem I would highly recommend a chamber pot...it reduces tension wonderfully. You can prepare to go BEFORE the urge strikes. My pot is a pretty one that I glazed in ceramics class, and has a lid. Though I scald it with very hot water, I find I need to run a cloth around in it, too.)
Before I headed for bed this a.m. I passed a small amount of stool, easily. Interestingly it came in the form of small balls. Something was breaking it up. Perhaps the flax seeds are helping.
I did make soup last night, a simple one...two pieces of snapper and the water I had cooked it in...some spinach and arugula...an onion...ginger and garlic and some cooked brown rice...a little butter and coconut oil and Celtic grey salt. Yum! I saved the curry and cilantro for today, with rice.
Last night I read at random on the CureZone and I noticed much about going without wheat and gluten. Putting that together with some stuff I read before about how the wheat plant has been hybridized and is grown on deficient soil, therefore the plant creates different substances to make up for the losses...I now feel very strongly that we shouldn't be eating these things.
Luckily, I've had very little gluten in the past few weeks...though one person suggests that even one tiny bit sets a person back. At a holiday buffet the other day, I had second helpings of veggies, for dessert. Grin! Mixed organic baby greens with a little turkey gravy; squash and pineapple; and tiny beets. I was the only one out of 168...mostly seniors.
Since I plan one day to create a 'retirement' complex for active seniors...straw-bale housing; lots of room for specialty activities, teaching and products for sale; and community health food...I find myself day-dreaming of, say, a club at 'retirement' centers...a 'Good Movers' club. Big grin!
F.