Day 2 - Dry fasting
It's 9:30am. I'm still in this. I feel hunger but I am determined to see this through.
Date: 10/26/2015 11:33:15 AM ( 7 y ) ... viewed 1277 times
I'm in 35 hours of dry fasting. This is not an absolute dry fast. So I am okay with having contact with water. I went to bed about 2am last night. Between 12:30 and 2am I felt hunger. This was uncomfortable but not painful. It certainly made for interesting mind games. I had some mild itching. I've noted before in my previous fast that I have this itchy all over body events between 24-48 hours of my fast. I suspected it had to do with my liver (Cholecystasis) but I'm wondering if it could be something else. Nevertheless, I don't want to focus too much on the physical aspect. I have a different approach to this fast. I remind myself that this is a spiritual journey first and foremost. I would like to release old patterns of thinking and awaken to more Truths about my Self. I seek for the path of peace and joy. Right now this fast is more to remove much of the distractions relative to the body. In my mind much of my physical discomfort, from the traditional perspective, "seems" to be caused by food/malfunction in the body. In my spiritual journey, it is brought to my attention that the body is really neutral and we project our thoughts onto it (guilt, fears, anger, etc) and is expressed in illness. Guilt is a definite obvious one, as there is a guilt connection in everything. Whether I slept too much, not enough; ate too much, not enough; exercised too little, or too much. For decades I've put too much attention on healing and wellness of the body. Considering all I've learned, I honestly don't feel that great. Health feels elusive. Never finding this satisfying balance.
Anyhoo, I know I've mentioned some of this in my previous posts but it helps to remind me why I am doing this. I am not a body. I am spirit. I do not accept the limits of the body. The body doesn't dictate my experience in this life. It is my mind that decides. I am free.
It has also been brought to my attention of the power of the words "I am". I've read things mentioning this before but it has resonated so much this time. I am realizing how much power I have given illness, deprivation, lack, physical dysfunction, pain, and suffering. I withdraw my belief in all that. My power is in my decision. I now decide to put my power into what I want and not what I don't want. Of course I am powerless without my connection to Source. It is but my Will that waits for me to reclaim this power and connection. I let go of the blocks that have denied this connection. That is what this fast is about.
Heavenly Father, guide me through this fast. My strength is in You. I cannot fail for this is not Your will. God wills that I be happy. I trust in You. I am not a body. I am free. I am as God created Me. I am worthy!
AND SO IT IS!
Have a great day to everyone. Waves of Love and Blessings to you reading this!!
Been meditating much of the afternoon. Mind games are on right now. Urges to eat are being thwarted with my prayers. The challenges I mostly deal with are having to make food for my family. Breakfast, lunch, snacks. Constant handling of foods can be okay at first but at moments like now I feel conflicted. Right now I am trying to find ways to deal with these thoughts and emotions positively but my 5 year old is wanting so much attention she is testing my patience. Frustration levels are rising.
PRAYING HARDER at this moment I am trying to find my strength.
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