Day 24 of Water Fast by Sacristia Blog entry

Blog: My Health Journey
by Sacristia

Day 24 of Water Fast

My daily Journey to a healthier life style

Date: 4/29/2011 1:37:20 PM ( 13 y ) ... viewed 1774 times

April 20, 2011

I am on Day 24! And I am feeling great and alive. I have a bit of yucky-ness off and on, but over all I am feeling really good. Better then I have in past fasts. That must be a sign that I am much healthier now than I have in the past.

I woke up listening to the news on my alarm clock radio. They talked about it being the 12 year anniversary of the Columbine School shooting. It never dawned on me that it has been 12 years. I remember reading a lot about it as as unfortunate as it is, it has always fascinated me the human nature of people. When I was in Junior High, I was fascinated with Adolf Hitler, as it made me wonder what made him tick and why he made the choices he made that affected millions of people during that time. You can say that the thoughts of those families affected by Columbine on in my thoughts and prayers though out the day.

My day was pretty much very simple, but at least I had something planned. It seems that I have less energy to get up and get out of bed nowadays. It probably doesn't help that I have been staying up late as well. LOL

Work was pretty much simple and semi busy which is lovely. During my lunch, I went to the library, as I have over the last week or so, if I don't have anything else to do or anything else scheduled. I have found that I am really enjoying going to the the library. You can say that it has been an new “haunting” of mine. LOL Well, the library has always been a hot spot for me, but over the years I have collected my own books and had access to the Internet in my own home, there was no reason to frequent the library as often as I had in the past. When I was a teenager, the library was very popular to me, as well as when I was a college student.

Of course, after work, I went to Christy's as usual. I am enjoying it more now since she will be going back to work and I won't be going over to her house during the week. I definitely have to find things to do outside my home and in my home. We talked a bit. I was feeling really yucky, so I had to keep on drinking a bit of water to keep it at bay. When my phone alarm went off for me to get ready for church, I told Christy that I didn't want to go. She asked me why. I told her that I just don't want to. LOL. Well, I did go, only to find out that there was no service, because the choir was practicing for the Sunday's Easter Service. I am sure that I read it in the bulletin, but forgot to mark off my calendar so I couldn't forget. I marked in on my phone calendar the the last month to go to church on Sundays and Wednesdays. LOL It was funny that I wasn't the only one that showed up. I talked to a lady a little bit. It was really nice to have a conversation with someone in my church. She pointed out various people that she knew, so I could be familiar with their names, since I knew people by face only. I was at the church listening to the the choir and the band niggle around with their instruments until 8:15 p.m. The last song I listened to was really good that it gave me chills. I can't wait to hear it on Sunday, because I am sure that it will affect a lot of people, on the way it was sung. I will have to find out the name of it once I heard how it is sung on Sunday.

After church, I was pretty much tired, so there was nothing interesting done, other then normal getting ready for bed-like things.

I read a little bit of my Bible (Exodus) and then my other book. I should be finishing it this week. I am excited. I haven't been reading as heavily has I have over the last year, but I am sure it will pick up, depending on what I am doing in and out of my home.

Since I find the time while I take a shower, as God time, I prayed a bit regarding the salvation of my parents. I even prayed for the guy, which I found easier to do then before. I guess that is a sign of healing and moving forward. I talked to God about various things that were on my heart. I told Him I realized that my relationship with the guy was a disaster and I should have never made the choice to have him in my life, but I had to learn for myself that he was bad for me. I knew that God tried to tell me that he was wrong from me, but I wouldn't listen, so I had to find out the hard way. I talked to God sincerely about wanting a man in my life that would make a great future husband to me. Someone that was a believe in God and Jesus and followed Him in his heart and not just in words. Someone that would understand me when I struggle or get frustrated with things in my life. To be balance me in ways, where he would be stronger when I am weak and where I can be stronger in areas in where he might be weak. A man that would help me with my bills, when that time came. A man that could help me with things that I am not good at like fixing my car and such. I struggle to tell the Lord about children, as I would be blessed if I had a man in my life that had young children, in which I could enjoy things with such as I did with K. and his son. Yet, I asked Him to protect my heart from any heartaches, that might come in getting involved with a guy that has children. Coming from a broken home, myself I know the possibilities of a future guy that might have a failed marriage or relationship that has children. It is a very touch and delicate issue, and something I really don't to get into, since it tends to cause heartaches for all people around. I told God that I would rather have a man that doesn't have children at all, but yet desires to have children so that way there is no messy situation. I felt that God heard my prayers and supplications, but at this point is silent, as I still have a lot of learning and walking in faith before I will be ready to find myself sharing my heart with anyone again. I know that I am not ready for it either after the guy. If anything, I want to avoid it, as it still hurts a bit.

When I laid down after my shower, it felt good, but I felt so hollow, that it made me restless. I really feel half of myself, which thinking about it (I really am, as I have come along way from being 155 pounds to now being 112 pounds. That is 43 pounds in 6 months). I can't wait to eat again, as I feel so float-y, which isn't a bad thing, but at times I feel that I am not part of this world, because of the status I am in. It is almost like I am between worlds or something. I know that fasting is used to help you connect with God, and I have in so many way lately. I feel closer to Him now that I have in the last year in a half.

I feel that I am really healing and moving toward a more healthier life mentally.

EXERICISE: walked 1.82 Miles,

WATER INTAKE: 48 ounces of water

WEIGHT: 112 pounds