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Day 17 of Water Fast
My daily Journey to a healthier life style
Date: 4/21/2011 4:41:42 PM ( 13 y ) ... viewed 1739 times
April 13, 2011
I didn't have a good night sleeping, as I drank a lot of water before bed, which was hard for me to do as I wasn't really thirsty, but I knew that my body needed it to flush the ketones out. I have a busy day today, as I have several things on my schedule to keep me so. I will probably being going to the Library (during my lunch time). I will be going to Christy's house before I go to church, as I have been doing for a couple weeks now. I have been going back to church for 3 weeks now, and I can definitely tell a difference in my life. I can only hope that my life will get better as time goes on.
I didn't want to get up out of bed, and Mekong didn't help either with drapping herself all over me. I have to say that even thought my sleep wasn't as restful as I would have liked, the closeness of her to me, does give me comfort. She is such a wonderful pet. I remember when Travis broke up with me all those years ago, how much she clung to me and keep my heart's love cup full. She is doing the same even now. She is really in tune with my emotions and heartaches. It seems the more that I am hurting, the more clingy she gets with me. It definitely is a God send to me. That is one reason why I love her and show her so much affection, as she is a mirror of myself with my own need for affection that I could only seemingly get from my cat when the guy was living with me. The guy complained about it a bit once and a while, but if he could see if he paid attention to me, I would lavish affection on him as well. It was always hard to lavish affection on a person, that ignored me, and pushed me a way anytime I tried hard to show what was in my heart. In the end, I was afraid to reach out to him, because I didn't want end up crying myself to sleep, when he pushed me aside once again. Sigh, a part of me regrets not being stronger and still trying to show affection, when I was hurting. Now, I can't fix the mistakes I made. At least I can try to feel “okay” with it, and lavish my affection on my cats, and spend time with my friends.
I didn't have much planned for the day, but it would have to do, to keep my busy. When I was getting dressed, I began feeling a bit odd, as a wave of nausea hit me. It surprised me, as I haven't had any, and my detoxification symptoms as have very slight, other then the acetone smell, and the waves of tiredness and energy. I have been making sure that I am drinking enough water to flush anything out that I can. I am surprised that I have gotten this far in my water fast. I think I am able to get farther this time, because I am much healthier then I have been in years, so the symptoms are not as intense as they have been in the past. I have to say that I am loving it.
For my lunch time, I went to the public library. I looked at quilt books and some recipe books, as there is so many interesting books to look at. I hope to get motivated enough to start quilting again. I haven't quilted since I was a teenager. When I was a teenager, I was always doing something: Quilting, sewing, writing poems and stories, painting, crocheting, knitting, clay work, photography, and beadwork. You can say that I was a bit more in touch with my dreams then, then I am now. Well, I shouldn't say that I am not now, because I am finding the “dreamer” within me again, now that I am calm and fasting. I always find how wonderfully “free” that I am. I guess I over look how free that I really am. I don't have any children and I am not married. That is usually something that holds great disappointment in me, because I would love to have family. But I realize that because of that freedom, I can do so much more then others like my best friend, can not do. She has two children, so it prevents her from doing a lot of things. She could be doing more with her children then she does, but I guess that is parenting skill she has not learned. I have found out that sitting on her phone in a chat room is an escape for her, which at times really affects her parenting skills. She allows her son to do whatever: watch TV, drink soda, play video games for hours, because she is always busy on her phone or watching TV herself. She told me once she was on depression medication, and she was doing all kinds of stuff like going to the park with Jesse and such. I told her that she could better herself by eating healthier, and she might get the motivation back again. I guess it always depends how bad you want it.
Work was okay. I was a bit bored, and found that I was becoming really restless, so I filed a bunch of stuff, and straighten the stock room, and the conference room/library. The energy only lasted a little bit, so I had to take a break, drink some water and continue sitting at my desk and do work there.
As I have been doing, I went to Christy's house before church. I mostly sat and talked to Christy, as my time at her house was short. I went my church's 6:30 Wednesday service. Pastor Mark really hit some wonderful points about how Satan uses our fears and the unknown to capture us. He shared with us, how he has been feeling around moving and how it really gripped him in fear for no reason. I really could relate especially with that I am going through right now. I decided that I would try my best not to mention the guy in my journal entries or in conversation with Christy or others. As just mentioning him, added to the uncertainty that I have in my heart. Thus, if I don't mention him, then I won't have anything to worry about or fret about. It was Pastor Mark's last little Bible study and at the end of the service he really shared his heart about leaving such a wonderful church.
I didn't have anything planned after church, so I just went home and relaxed a bit. I was getting really thirsty anyway. When I got home, I drank 16.9 ounces of water right off the bat. LOL. I spend the rest of the night reading my “Brisinger”book, reading my Bible, watching/listening to a movie.
Did some body brushing before I took my shower and really got ready for bed. I haven't been really motivated to do much cleaning around the house as I am just taking it easy during my water fast, but I know I will get bit by the Spring Cleaning bug soon, hopefully it will be after Easter. LOL
EXERICISE: walked 1.97 Miles,
WATER INTAKE: 32 ounces of water
WEIGHT: 114 pounds
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