Day 25 What am I willing to do to save my own life? by trulioness Blog entry

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Day 25 What am I willing to do to save my own life?

Who knew that is what it would look like comming out!

Date: 2/4/2008 2:12:57 AM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 3679 times

I can’t wait to eat. Why have I been so hungry lately I don’t know… and the sad part is… is that I don’t think I am really hungry, I am just so ready to eat. I am just baffled because I should be done with this. I thought I would be high or something! I think maybe the late hours have an affect on me!

All in all, I can’t complain because I feel good because I feel lighter, I have lost weight, my clothes fit better, I have accomplished something I didn’t think I would… I didn’t meditate as much as I thought I would but I did learn a lot about myself. I plan to start a yoga class this week too, we will see.

I got plenty of sleep today and didn’t want to get up. It seems that it has been hard for me to wake up lately even after 7 hours! But no matter how long I sleep, I always have to get up to pee... that didn’t happen before!

My pee has been a light yellow all the time every time, I must assume that is cleansing going on because usually when I drink a lot of water it would be clear at least sometimes!

I drank my lax tea before going to sleep and I watched a little bit of the movie “Defending Your Life” which I like a lot. It makes one think about the purpose of this life and really what we are supposed to get out of this experience. One thing they in the movie is that people on Earth only use 3% of their brain and they spend a lot of time trying to overcome fear, because that is what "little brains" do. It is said that fear is like a fog(I know what you are thinking). They say the purpose of living is to GROW! There is no getting it right or wrong. Intersting huh?

I woke up and did an enema because my stomach hurt and I knew that tea was doing something but I didn’t go on my own. This gluey pasty looking stuff came out.. I am thinking what the hell is that… is that what Pepsi, pizza and Ho-Ho’s turn into???? Afterward, I felt better. This is such an eye opening experience on what I put into my body. It should be illegal for companies to put certain ingredients into foods or make synthetic foods because they really have no clue how our bodies will react to a substance that this not nature based. They don’t know the long term effects. They don’t know that I bodies will even be able to break it down! They don’t know if our bodies can eliminate it! I guess they figure if it doesn’t kill you in 4 weeks then who gives a damn cuz we making some money baby! Cancer Smancer… we don’t know where it comes from!

I spoke with a doctor who does food transitioning and I don’t have to tell you why. A cute girl like me on oxygen ain’t so cute! She charges $160.00 for the initial consultation and tells you what to buy and eat then you come back in a month for a follow up… So I got to thinking.. is it worth paying that much? Plenty of other people have transitioned into healthier lifestyles, I know I can! I don’t smoke or dink and I am willing to give up my love affair with anything that has icing on it. I decided to take action! I just ordered 3 fabulous vegetarian and vegan cook books because I know I will get bored of eating the same thing if I am not proactive…..especially with All the BAD SAD foods are all around us!

The question is... What am I willing to do to save my own life? What am I willing to forego to have a great quality of life? What am I willing to believe about myself so that I can see the truth and respect all that I am?

The books look great and were only $35.00, so I saved myself $130 bucks! I know it will take some doing but I believe I can do it. There is nothing we CAN’T learn…right??? I know I will have to be creative and be willing to cook. I know how to cook basic things so this is going to help me grow and experiment. I find myself worrying about the cost of eating healthier and buying all the cooking equipment I don’t have… but that is another area that I need to “let go” of. The old “fear of not having.” Enough is enough! We learn about the law of attraction and the infinite universe and how if you ask then it is given… yet we worry about basic survival… Ridiculous! So anyway… Down with the lack mentality as we focus on love, health, abundance and prosperity!!!! I have made a decision to focus on what I want, not the reasons I can’t have it! Oh to be stress free!

So here I am excited about making the transition. To think I am going to be sexier than I already am (if that is possible) is “orgasmic!” You know how much I like myself already. (*wink wink) The one thing I must improve upon in exercise! I have a weight machine that I haven’t touched in months. I am going to incorporate that in my routine at least 3x a week. I know that will help me easily loose weight. I am at work now and I am sleepy… I pray I can make it thru this night. I don’t have to work for the next 5 days so I know I will be fine as I purposely don’t have any ready to eat food at home and I will be able to get rest.

As I said before, my goal is to be happy and take care of myself.

Thank you for reading and I send you my love and support!