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start/stop...start/stop 15 y
/start....fasting
I began the freakin' cycle all over again. What the hey! Just when I thought it would be different this last time & it wasn't. I just bugged...sad too. I realize that maybe I can't do this alone.... read more I can understand frustation 15 y
...on fasting
So I am on day 5 of my fast...
Yesterday was a rough one for me. I felt very weak & tired.
My menstrual cycle began & I also took a hot bath, and right after I started to feel even worse. So I j... read more Day 3 of my fast 15 y
feel good
Woke up this morning full of energy...I'm sure it helps that I also had a good nights rest.
Kids have been sick this past week, so that is always a struggle to get a good nights sleep.
One notic... read more Fasting - 2nd day 15 y
...hoping it helps
I don't expect fasting to be the miracle cure I need for my eating disorder. I am sure there are some that would disagree and maybe even discourage me from starting a fast.
I complete understand ... read more The Needing and Wanting 15 y
...to report good news
...but I have nothing but bad news.
Nothing but my head down the toilet again.
I have to say that although I am disappointed, I am not dwelling on it. I just have to look forward and know that i... read more Found strenght didn't know I had 15 y
Thanking God for small miracles
So happy to report this morning that I pushed through my desire to binge&purge yesterday.
Just tried to keep my mind busy...and my desire to be cleansed of the b&p cycle was stronger then my need... read more Feels like food is my enemy right now 15 y
little voive inside my head
Just want to be rid of the negative voice in my head that screams for the binge & the purge high....just want it, just want it and that's all there is to that. I feel like there is the voice of an ... visit the page In trying times... 15 y
accountability is everything
The past couple of days have been a little difficult around here. Dealing with an aging Mom is never easy...and to boot I was involved in a car accident. Priority, my child and I were okay...just ... read more Remembering Dark Days 15 y
strength in remembering
As I went about my day today, I kept thinking of all the time that I've wasted.
As a bulimic, you are consumed by food...how much am I gonna eat? when will I be alone to have a good time & eat all... read more Pushing Through 15 y
mind set is everything
I was able to clear my mind & thought of that dark place I would be in after a purge.
I don't want to be there again.
That thinking kept me from making the mistake of going through with my binge... read more Holding on 15 y
Can I really do this?
So it's now one week since I began my new eating plan & have not binged.
Mind strong all week long. Yet tonight for a brief second while I was reading my girls their bedtime story--amazing how it... read more Keepin' On 15 y
Strength in bagfuls
Well-so far so good. My true test came yesterday.
I went to pick up a few things from the grocery store.
Usually, when I go to the store - that's where I lose it. I Pick up my fave foods-sweet... read more Trust myself 15 y
One step at a time
Trying to keep busy, busy, busy.
When not medicating with food, I go for the next best thing to numb or satiate my crazy thinking...alcohol. Just like other moms I know, after putting the kids to... read more How time flies 15 y
Unconditional trust
Secrets exist because we know sommetimes unconditional trust is not possible.
It has been TEN YEARS. That amount of time just takes me back. I can't believe it.
The secrecy I've lived in...not ... read more What tomorrow brings 15 y
plans for tomorrow
I am trying not to be freaked out by my weight this morning. Scale read 147/148lbs. I don't own the best of scales...I felt good yesterday..ate carbs & snacked all day,so that explains the weight g... read more A promise to myself 15 y
eating plan
Self-reflection is what has played a big part in my wanting to deal with my eating disorder. I am not satisfied with what I see staring back at me. Right now I am not a good role model for my child... read more A cleanse to a new way of life 15 y
I want to live
For the past 10 years of my life I have lived secretly with my addiction to food. I am bulimic. There has been many a time during this ten year time frame that I have wanted to rid myself of my add... read more |