Bob: Your message touched me. I am sorry you have had such heartache. I realize that I caused that same heartache for my ex nine years ago and I am the one suffering now with regret. Every time I look at my son, I just think that I should have stayed with his dad and given him a better family life - don't get me wrong, I give him a very good life now, but I just mean in the sense of "the perfect family". I guess everything happens the way it was suppose to and we have remember that God has a plan for us. It is just hard to think that way all the time, especially when you are sad. I hope for all the best for you and I thank you for taking the time to write. If you ever need an "ear", I'm here to listen.