Don't kill yourself. It's not worth it. YOu used the credit card and you must pay them back no questions asked. If someone borrowed money from you then you would expect your money back. That is how it works.
Cut up all your credit cards except one for now. Keep hitting the pavement for a job and then try to go to a community college for a good 2 yr program that way you will have the skills to get a better job to pay off your debts. Two yrs is not a long time. Stop spending so much. Times can get hard for anyone who doesn't have a trust fund or had wealthy parents. YOu can't spend like crazy and expect the debts to pay themselves off.