Re: It's getting too much

I happened to find a community mental health place that helps with employment. I rang them which was really hard for me to do. I couldn't talk for long as I was holding back the wailing. I would need to go in for half a day seminar which is so hard to me to do. I haven't sat in the a room situation in years. Also, I have to do about 45mins of public transport to get to it. I said I would call back. I just broke down so hard when I got off the phone.
It is raining and overcast today as well as cold. All making my mood deeper. I have to get out of this deep pit to be able to try and make this seminar this week.
I don't know anyone to come with me. Only my bf knows about my problem. I am ashamed of myself.
I would never tell me friends.
I don't speak to my family and they are all mental cases too anyway.
There is one sister that might come and actually lives near it but she is in her own little selfish world.
I want to stop crying. Tweet